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Someone else

Final exam is approaching.

I was trying to catch up with tons of skipped lectures before I start revising.

Couldn't concentrate. Refreshing facebook news feeds. Surfing net.
Then I read this.

I feel her flow of emotions. I don't know how to say. I just...

I think I understand.

So love, but so hard, try so hard to keep it going.

Someone else (JYP duet with Gain)

I loved you so much but it was so hard, so hard.

So, love became weaker.

Finally, all my love for you dried up.

(It could be the reason that) So, I left you

One of my favorite songs recently

One of my favorite K-pop singers

Sometimes people just don't understand.

They just judge.

要么忍

要么残忍

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♥ xee ♥ 5:08 PMPost a Comment

5.20

Done with the last test of the sem last Friday. The test was bit difficult...but I think should be fine since most of us *iguess* felt the same way so I am not so worry about it lol. I got my Pharmacology test result on the same day. Surprisingly I scored really well in that test and hence I will be less worry for the final paper even if I messed up the research paper and coming poster presentation.

身边的好朋友一个接一个的传来分手的消息. 看着他流泪说着觉得自己心都碎了我却不知道该说什么安慰的话语, 我也很不知所措, 我也觉得很难过. 有多抱歉我那个时候没有接到你的电话, 有多抱歉当下没有回你的电话, 有多抱歉过了那么久才知道这样让你心碎的消息. 凌晨五点收到他的讯息. "我跟女朋友分手了. 考完试给我打通电话." 电话另一头的你说你也不知道以后会怎么样,会不会复合,说你觉得你捱得过. 想起几年前分手后撕心裂肺的你, 有多担心你再次变成那个放不下最后伤了自己的你. 要坚强, 要照顾自己, 无论什么事什么时候, 你们都有我的支持和陪伴.

很多时候很多事久而久之你觉得是理所当然的. 你可能没有发现它的意义. 不眠不休不吃不喝对你来说好似都没什么. 不方便. 过几天. 你没有发现有时候无止尽的等待其实很累. 有些人, 有些事, 你总是要等到失去了才想要挽留, 才想要珍惜. 而不是每个人每件事每一次, 都会在你掉头转身就走后还在原地守候等待.

今天是 5.20. 祝情侣们继续恩爱, 单身的朋友们找到对的人. 大家都幸福快乐. 520 的这一天也跟家人老婆还有男朋友说声 "我爱你!"

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♥ xee ♥ 9:08 PMPost a Comment

Happy 21st Birthday

今天就是我男朋友的二十一岁生日啦! 幸好礼物如期寄到家里. 我辛辛苦苦准备了好几个星期的礼物也如愿送到他手上啦. 不枉我废寝忘食还翘课的准备啊啊啊.

第五个没有一起过的生日了. 没办法, 谁让我们是苦命鸳鸯呢. 二十一岁的生日很想在你身边跟你一起过的. 不过没关系, 至少我很认真地准备了你的生日礼物. 明年再 resume 每年都送你钱包的传统吧哈哈哈哈.

相恋六年来也分分合合了很多很多次了. 远距离, 我课业繁忙, 你课业更繁忙, 两个人联络说话的时间实在少得可怜. 有时候我也不住质疑是不是真的能够一起走下去. 对于有时会突然对这段感情很没有安全感的我, 我也拿自己没办法. 但比起硬要你抽出时间陪伴我, 我更想做的是个懂事贴心的女朋友. 让你在努力读着那不是人读的医科时, 不需要担心独自身在国外的我. 相信你, 就像你相信我一样. 相信只要我们对彼此的心不变, 距离就不会是个问题.

既然今天是你生日我就大方的告诉你 Twinkle & Baby Step 很好听. 不过都是因为是 TaeYeon 唱的关系啊哈哈哈哈.

想说的话都已经写在卡片里啦. 还是祝你二十一岁生日快乐. Don't worry, be happy. Enjoy your uni life despite of hectic studies. No matter what, you always have me with you. All the best in all your undertakings especially studies. Happy 21st birthday! p.s I love you <3

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Sick

I have two tests coming on the same day and an assignment to submit next week but I don't feel like study at all. I feel like I'm fatigue after done preparing my boyfriend's upcoming 21st birthday present. Tried my very best to do presentable presents and I'm so proud of myself lolol. I really hope he'll feel a lil bit touched 'coz I paid so much effort. Please cry when you receive them lolol.

Recently I got myself a part time job, waitressing at a restaurant ZheJun intro me to. I try to get like a shift a week as I don't want working affect my studies and drama watching time. Boyfriend and parent strictly against me doing part time because they don't want me go back home late in the night plus they think waitressing is very tough for me. When I first told my mom I went for trial waitressing, she was like 'you must be short of money. daddy ll give u. dont work.'' Then when I start working few days ago and I told her I went to work, she was like ''WTH. DADDY WILL GIVE YOU MONEY. DON'T WORK.'' I feel so loved but still I think I'll ~~secretly~~ go work. Unfilial me but I just wanna try not to ask money from them :'(

I'm deeply touched when received your gift. The M size shirt is really too big for me, but who knows I might get fatter right? And the postcard too. I promise I'll go find u as soon as possible. Thank you very much my dear Jeff! Hope to see you real soon and take good care of yourself kay! Miss you much here :D

This moody weather has caused me fall sick. Keep coughing till they said I seems like dying lol touch wood. Falling sick make me more sleepy and less motivated to study. Haix. Have to say goodbye to good grades in the coming two papers. Buaibye.

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♥ xee ♥ 7:58 PMPost a Comment

等你

爱是什么东西有没有意义
你是什么东西伤透我的心

你的爱情像游戏我却爱得很彻底

其实我爱你反而让你受委屈

勾过手指的你该不该放弃
曾经不弃不离你却不在意

用尽一身的力气守护一生的约定

难道这是我一厢情愿的秘密

等你的好消息却等不到半点安慰的话语

只有你满脸的嫌弃

等你的好消息再等也没有半滴温柔残余

我开始不再相信童话中天荒地老的约定

烧掉了回忆从此你从记忆里删去

谢谢你让我懂得放弃学会了哭泣

等你也好想你

却等到了铺天盖地的雷雨

和遍体鳞伤的自己

等你也好想你

却等到了一个无人的废墟

我们却都回不去

再没有曾经爱过的痕迹

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♥ xee ♥ 9:07 PMPost a Comment

Holiday

Midterm break almost comes to its end. Back from 4D3N road trip to Flinders Ranges with KamYoke, LeeSha, YeeLing, HuiRen, SheeHwa, Kevin and Han. It was great and fun. We went hiking and fishing. Didn't manage to take much pictures because it was too tiring hiking and walking. Anyway it was great and thanks guys for making the trip so fun!

Spent the holiday with potluck at friend's house, cheong k and hang out with friends. Surprisingly I didn't go to Harbour Town during this break. One because my feet were still too pain to go shopping, two because I'm almost broke because I'm preparing my boyfriend's upcoming birthday present. Aiks, spent a lot of time and money on preparing his 21st birthday present yet I'm still very not satisfy with what I'd done. What to do, I'm clumsy =x

我好像没有办法再和你一起去旅行了. 没有办法再坐在那个副驾驶座上. 没有办法好好和你说话了. 我知道你在努力. 我知道你说的是真的. 我也努力了. 但是我们回不到那个从前了.

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♥ xee ♥ 10:29 AMPost a Comment

I Wonder If You Hurt Like Me

I wonder if you hurt like me, by 2AM. I really like this song a lots though my favourite song from them is Can't let you go even if I die which I'd mentioned in my last blog post lolol. Try it, you might get addicted too :)

Yesterday was the last day of uni before mid-term break. 2 weeks holiday. Don't have much planning yet. Lazy to plan, what I want to do is stay at home and slack only hahaha. Might go on a road trip with some friends. Pot luck, cheong k, shopping, hang out with friends, sleep till naturally wake. I'm blessed o(*.*)o

有时候

真的只是有时候

我还是很想你

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TGIF

Today is Friday, the non-productive day as always. What people normally do on Friday nights especially over here are clubbing. I'm not a very outgoing person, prefer slack at home most of the times. Do not enjoy clubbing so far, and boyfriend doesn't like me go to club, so clubbing is usually a no-no to me. So what I normally do on Friday nights is just throw away the lecture notes and watch drama. Boring person like me I know but who cares I enjoy more in this way =.=

Have a test coming next week before the 2 weeks mid-term break. An almost-done-report to submit before the break too. Recalling the SAM days this is not considered as hectic life. At least I can watch more episodes of drama everyday compared to the days back then. I'm grateful T.T And I'm hoping I can still ~~score in the coming test~~ despite of my ~~recent slackness~~. *fingers-crossed*

Today is YeeJia's graduation day! KamYoke, HuiRen and me bought an Oriental bouquet to her graduation. She is same age as me yet she already graduated and I'm still stuck at Year 2 =.= The photos taken are in her mom's camera so I guess I can only see them if and only if she is going to upload on Facebook lolol. I'm so happy for you and I wish you all the best in your future undertakings girl. We shall catch up some day and I hope you do like your current working life!

2AM released their new song weeks ago! I wonder if you hurt like me, me mad love hahahaha. Though I still think that Can't let you go even if I die is their best hit, their newly released song is definitely one of my favorites now. If you don't know them, they are Korean ballad boy band. Check their songs out and you'll find them really have good vocal!

Been checking out air tickets back to Malaysia for this winter break. And OMG late June tickets for Singapore Airlines already not available now! Exam timetable, why you no released earlier so that I can book my tickets earlier! Haix, not sure by the time exam timetable released still got tickets available or not. I really wanna go homeeee.

Boyfriend is kinda busy these days so we hardly have any conversation. This is medicine student's life I guess =x No worries baby, I can understand. We'll talk when we can. Take good care of yourself there and I <3 you

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♥ xee ♥ 8:48 PMPost a Comment

Back

So ya I'm back to Adelaide, for around 2 weeks already. I was not happy for coming back at all. My boyfriend started his first semester break while I back to this hell. Totally shitty mood. Shee Hwa and Hui Ren came pick me up at the airport when I arrived. Thank you so much for coming !!

Year 2 is tough, much tougher compared to Year 1. Courseworks are heavier, tests and quizzes more frequently. This year one of my resolutions is attend as much lectures as I can, work harder for my studies also. As I'd spent a lot, really quite a lot of my parents' money just on changing my flights back to Malaysia and back to Adelaide, I'm guilty to death. Due to this guiltiness, I've become more hardworking for these 2 weeks since I get back, at least I tried read through lecture notes every night. Very easily get distracted but I at least I tried lolol. Nah I'll try to try harder, to stay concentrate on studying *fingers crossed*

I miss my daddy mommy sister brothers boyfriend and friends. Still thinking whether wanna go back to Malaysia this winter break or not. I want to go back so much but I don't really wanna spend daddy's money. Thought of get a job here to earn the air tickets money by myself, but now I don't think I can handle my studies while working at the same time. Aiks, will see how much the air ticket costs first after exam timetable is out.

A good news for the beginning of Year 2 is I'd get the invitation to join the Golden Key International Honour Society. Not a big deal but I think I'll still join it by paying 95 bucks wtf =x Shall get this money back from my parent I'm sure they will be glad to financially support me on this kind of thing lolol

That's all for now. Will update when I'm free or something interesting happens! If you're reading this, boyfriend I miss you very much and 妈咪我想你还有阿宝二姐宝立和小胖! i knew mommy and boyfriend are stalkers =x

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♥ xee ♥ 8:57 PMPost a Comment

Happy CNY

一个月没有更新部落格了, 还有一个月就要回去了. 唉, 想到都不开心啊. 没更新部落是因为我实在太懒了, 也没这么多闲暇功夫更新. 今年是龙年也是我们朋友口中的释怀年哈哈哈. Wish everyone a happy dragon year :D.

初一早上更往年一样到外婆家. 下午去诗湘和静家, 晚上去明辉家. 每年都是这样过. 今年也不例外, 没什么特别的哈哈哈.

Beloved family.

虽然每年初一明辉都会来我外婆家, 但今年初二是我第一年去明辉的外婆家 ! 虽然不是第一次见面但还是觉得很陌生哈哈哈. 希望婆婆身体健康. 从明辉外婆家辉来就去阿情家吃火锅.

一直倒酒骗女孩子喝

初三就是团拜的日子啦. 跟往年比起来今年少了很多人, 在欧洲读书的没回来, 在新加坡读书的又开学了. 但是少人好过没人吧! 团拜就真的是一年一次整 batch 中学同学聚在一起的一天哪.

Considered quite a lot of us attended already

今年新年另一件特别有意义的事就是初四和 NS 朋友的聚会吧. 一年就见这么一两次面的朋友啊. 希望大家都过得很好.

初五终于见到了两年不见的雁荔啊. 中学时期的好友, 虽然两年不见, 这两年来也几乎没有联络, 再见面感觉还是两年前一起度过五年中学生涯的好友, 真好. 你在那里过得很好, 我也很替你感到开心.

Take good care of yourself! Always keep in touch ;)

初六就和中学同学再次去了小团拜. 晚上在家里吃了火锅后就去了小学同学家拜年. 初七和男友还有他家人一起捞生. 初八还是拜年. 初九到 Kar Onn 家吃火锅. 元宵节十几个中学同学一起去 Kukup 吃海鲜. 初十五之前做了什么都不记得了哈哈.

It was a really meaningful Chinese New Year for me. Great reunion with family, boyfriend & his family, and all my friends. Spent more time to get know with boyfriend's family and friends and i think that is a big improvement of myself hahaha. Lastly attached a pic of my boyfriend and me and I wish him can do his best in his coming exam.

Thanks for spending so much time with me and i love you baby <3

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♥ xee ♥ 12:58 PMPost a Comment

2011 & 2012

We wish you a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year !!! 耶. 是的圣诞节过了, 新年也到了. 传说中的 2012, 玛雅预言的世界末日不知不觉地来到了哈哈哈.

嗯没有更新的这几个星期很充实的在跟家人男友和朋友一起过. 跟静伶敏诗湘又去了一趟马六甲, 跟男友去了一趟浮罗交怡岛. 跟家人就是云顶新加坡和新山到处跑啦. 旅游篇, 就等我有空的时候再写吧.

2011 年呢算是人生中新的一个里程碑. 挥别了十字头的青春迎来了二十岁的我. 离开了心爱的家人男友朋友们离乡背井变成了大学生.学习在新的环境独立. 在新的环境自然也认识了不少朋友. 也庆幸并感恩有合得来的大学朋友和室友. 就算在国外也算过的开心. 所以就希望在新的一年里依然合得来开开心心的过我的大学生涯啦.

出国留学第一个备受考验的就是远距离恋爱呗. 话说虽然我们有很多年的感情了, 可是还是免不了的会担心. 各自都课业繁忙, 也很少有时间像正常远距离恋爱情侣应该有的常联系. 但是呢我还是坚信距离不是问题. 希望我们可以克服接下来三年远距离的难关,继续相爱下去.

家里方面呢, 我不在的这段期间有一位家庭成员过世了. 我也是回到家的那一晚才知道这已经发生了近半年的事. 家人男友都守口如瓶不让我知道半点消息, 封锁消息不让我好友们知道, 深怕影响我在澳的心情. 虽然从他们每每我问起就轻描带过已知道情况不乐观, 但没想到根本已不在人世了. 听到这个消息男友问我 are you okay 接受得了吗. 我想说事情过去了那么久我什么也没参与, 只能说我根本不觉得是一个事实. 二叔, 你在天堂, 要过的开开心心.

2012 年呢, 希望家人男友身体健健康康. 一家人和和睦睦, 兄弟姐妹感情也更好, 更长进读书. 和男友的感情也一翻风顺继续恩爱. 跟中学学院大学的好朋友依然感情不散. 2012 会不会是末日还是未知数, 但不管是不是, 最重要的还是要开开心心的过每一天啦 !!

Happy 2012 !!!

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哈哈哈

不知不觉我已经回来两个星期啦. 回来的这两个星呢真是过得非常地充实啊. 而且虽然已经回来两个星期了我还是没有办法跟时差抗衡. 于是我就变成了早睡早醒的好宝宝啊 !!

首先呢就是大一年终考的成绩出炉了. 我真是没有办法用言语描叙我的感动啊 !! 竟然还考得比上个学期好. 很开心看到你们 HD 们. 果然没有枉费我的~~一番努力~~啊哈哈哈哈. 不管怎样既然没有不及格接下来的假期就好好的玩吧哈哈哈.

我那二十年来不烫不染的直长法终于在不久前变成卷发啦 !! 实在对 Joey 有够不好意思的. 说好回去给他烫结果在我阿姨们的怂恿下我还是决定跟小姨一起去新山~~做菜头~~哈哈哈没有啦也没有贵很多. 我的直长发果然是打从骨子里的硬啊. 看来不久它就会再度变回直长发了呗.

这两天就是连续的跟老婆还有彭大小姐出来啦. 几个月不见加出国念书的我们果然变得很可怕. 实在是外人不宜参与的聚会啊. 所以就好好安排我们两个星期后的旅程吧 !!

普吉岛在我妈害怕我被淹死或在动荡不安的泰国被炸死的忧虑下被迫不能参与啦. 唉. 但是呢我会想办法去找你们的. 就算不能一起去旅行还是得聚一聚啊. 下一次的旅行我在参与吧 !!

话说中学同学们浩浩荡荡的定了明年七月去古晋的票. 我~~从澳洲回来的票都还没买~~却先买了去古晋的票. 阵容庞大的有一种毕业旅行的错觉. 既然去古晋的票都买来我实在不得不在寒假时回来啊哈哈哈. 拜托新航搞点促销吧我都快破产了呀.

No turning back

No question left to ask

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♥ xee ♥ 11:10 AMPost a Comment

Home sweet home

又是久违的更新啊. 没有更新的这一个星期多呢, 大一的年终考结束了, 我也回到马来西亚了. 我真心地希望上帝可以保佑我每一科都及格啊. Physiology 真的是难到我要哭啊. 不过哭也没有用, 所以还是一面祈祷一面等待成绩吧.

考完试后回家前的那两天呢就是不断的买手信啦. 我的钱包真的是破了一个很大很大的洞啊. 谈钱伤感情所以还是不谈了. 考完试的隔天呢就是 Harry oppa 的生日啦. 一向以礼尚往来为原则的我自然也在他生日的这天先请他吃午餐再送上钱包作生日礼物啦. 嗯我知道你的生日愿望已经实现了哈哈哈所以你就祝福你啦. Happy belated birthday ya.

星期六早上呢就是回家的日子啦. 感谢 Shee Hwa 载我去机场还陪我等到 boarding 才离开啊. 感谢您大老远七早八早的来载我啊 !! 也谢谢 May 和 Kam Yoke 本来也要送我去机场但因已有 Shee Hwa 载了所以便做罢的好意啊. 还有 Tiffany 和 May 七早八早醒来帮我把行李拿下楼送到 Shee Hwa 车还跟 Shee Hwa 说谢谢哈哈哈. 我们三个月后见啦大家.

新航很准时地在 1240 起飞. 我真的很喜欢新航啊. 七个小时的旅程我看完了 ''翻滚吧 ! 阿信'' 又看了一遍哈里波特之死亡圣物下半部. 歌和戏都超新的啦. 希望我每次回家都可以乘搭新航啊. 准时地起飞又在比预定时间早抵达新加坡. 真是感谢你啊新航.

最重要的就是在机场等我的家人男友还有诗湘啦. 我真的是很想念很想念很想念他们啊啊啊. 抱着我九个月不见的男友是我真是差点没有哭出来啊. 然后就跟家人男友一起去吃晚餐. 然后呢就是因为时差本人又是很按时睡觉的所以呢十点多本人就很累很想睡了. 唉. 我不是这么早睡的人啊 !!

时差弄得我这么早睡, 自然也会很早把我弄醒啦. 好处就是我终于醒得来跟明辉还有他的家人一起吃早餐啦. 然后晚上再久违的跟他去新山走走拍拖啦. 虽然我放假这么久, 可是这三个月内他也没有什么放假, 所以呀真是可以一起的时间都要格外的珍惜啊.

大概就是这样啦回来的这两天大部分时间都是跟男友还有家人一起过的. 接下来去把头发剪一剪然后要去找其他朋友了啦. 有空的时候会更新的. 最后尚在一张男友送的欢迎我回来的礼物照吧.

Thank you boyfriend
I love you so much

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♥ xee ♥ 7:41 PMPost a Comment

耶

有翅膀的不一定是天使,他可能是鸟人. 骑白马的不一定是王子, 他可能是唐僧.
哈哈哈哈哈这两句话真是这四年来不管什么时候只要我想起就还是会噗笑啊哈哈哈哈.

今天终于开始考试了. 耶!!! 我不是喜欢考试的死变态. 只是开始考试了就代表离回家的日子很近了. 耶!!! 回家的日子终于短到可以说我下个星期就要回家了. 真是非笔墨可以形容的喜悦啊.

周杰伦和苏打绿也出新专辑了. 周杰伦的专辑嘛, 就是这样咯, 就是如果你是他的粉丝他写什么歌你就都是会喜欢的啦. 苏打绿的新专辑很好听. 喜欢寂寞, 幸福额度, 你在烦恼什么. 青峰的词曲创作好厉害啊. 是我很喜欢的一张专辑.

最近在 Facebook 广泛流传不知名女子的裸照, 实在有够变态. 这么不自爱, 我希望你们统统被抓去吃咖哩饭.

不成熟的感情啊

陌生地让我害怕

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♥ xee ♥ 7:30 AMPost a Comment

Wonder World

Wonder Girls are back !! OMG their second album Wonder World is superb !! So many nice songs in 1 album. I can't decide which is my fav song in this album. Title song is 'Be My Baby', me personally favor the Ra.D mix version. Me,in is so me hahaha. Girls girls and act cool are so awesome too. I love the lyrics of Act Cool, written by Wonder Girls' maknae Hyerim. The rap is so sass and thus so me hahaha. 'You foxes acting like kings in the jungle (watch out), the tiger is back for real' straightforward stating the Kpop queens are back. And Girls Girls for the girls all around the world. 'Say girls girls, I'm a wonder girl. Can be the only one in the world.' Fine I'm a feminist so whatever song encouraging and/or bias girls power then me big love hahaha. Okay I can't be introducing each and every one of the songs here. You really have to listen to this album, the whole album. I'm an Everlasting but I feel i'm becoming a Wonderful too after listen to this album. I'm looking forward to see your coming comeback stage !!

其实没有东西写了. 可是只是写 Wonder Girls 的新专辑好像又不行. 我又不是韩流音乐分享部落客. 嗯. 要考试了. 可是我读书很像没有读这样. 都不懂我在读什么读了什么也不记得. 都不懂这样的状态要怎样去考试. 全家都呈现疯癫状态全家都读书读到疯了哈哈哈哈. 嗯再在一起住多两个星期. 我会想念你们俩的妈咪和小妹.

嗯要回家了. 我要每天躺在家里无所事事哈哈哈. 想陪妈妈去早市回外婆家陪她做以前我爱赖床她也总让我多睡些而很少陪她做的事. 想跟妹妹像以前一样手牵着手逛街半夜躺在床上说话不睡觉笑到跟鬼一样. 想听弟弟诉说他同学的八卦一起逛街吃饭电影. 想听爸爸踏进家门就分享刚听到电台说的笑话想一起去旅行. 我好想家啊啊啊. 嗯除了家人之外全笨珍跟我一样得空的也只有伶敏了. 好吧那么我们就相依为命吧. 嗯为了你美好的将来着想我们俩假期的计划就从减肥开始吧.

哎哟你不要出现可以吗哈哈哈哈我不想看到你哈哈哈哈.

你没有错

错的是我

是我明知道你是这种人

还给你机会一再的伤害我

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♥ xee ♥ 9:43 AMPost a Comment

习惯

写日记是一种习惯, 写部落是一种习惯, 赖床是一种习惯, 发呆是一种习惯, 想你是一种习惯, 爱你是一种习惯. 于是等待变成一种习惯, 忧郁变成一种习惯, 害怕变成一种习惯, 伤害变成一种习惯, 分离变成一种习惯, 陌生也变成一种习惯.

要大考了. 我知道临时抱佛脚是不对的. 可有什么办法呢. 如果我临时连佛脚都不抱的话, 就只有等死翘翘了. 这个学期比上个学期还懒, 成绩自然也没有上个学期好啦. 又有什么办法呢. 也只能祈祷及格就好啦.

要回家了. 是我每天早上睁开眼跟自己默默说的第一句话. 还有 xx 天就回家了. 如果你认识我的日子已经久到可以用年来计算的话, 你就会知道我是个无敌恋家的死孩子. 我好想家啊. 时间可不可以摆脱你再走快一点, 让我可以快点看到我最心爱的家人还有朋友们?

这个世界上就是有很多很多的十多个. 有些十多个就是很 QL. 十多就算了还要讨论, 还要鸡婆跟人家讲. 如果你就是其中一个这样十多我的人, 没错我就是在讲你, 我是非常的 DL 你. 上天给你一张嘴, 是给你用来吃饭好让你不会饿死但可能你吃太多也会肥死, 不是叫你吃饱没有事做鸡婆告诉人家别人没有想要让人家懂的事.

嗯. 你应该是认真的才会公开吧. 不管怎样祝你幸福, 希望你们可以长久地走下去.

啊啊啊啊啊!!!! 我要回家啊啊啊啊啊!!!

好累

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♥ xee ♥ 8:17 PMPost a Comment

她他

她, 因为他, 又伤了心. 对她来说, 是那么多年的感情, 不是说放就放得下. 对他来说, 却是已过了那么多年了, 早该放下了. 一段感情两个人, 那么多年的光阴, 他们却再也回不到相爱的从前.

是不是男女始终有别? 曾经他那么的爱她, 就算她骄纵任性无理取闹. 如今他只是淡淡地说, 一切都已事过境迁.

你不是不守承诺的人, 可当初你为何要承诺你办不到的事?

她, 因为他, 始终提心吊胆. 他总是说是她想太多. 他总是让她不要担心那些有的没的. 他总说因为她是女生, 所以她总是缺乏安全感. 他有没有想过, 是因为那些过往让她缺乏安全感? 他有没有想过, 是因为他的变化让她没有办法不想太多? 他有没有想过, 她会这样想这样担心这样在他眼里无理取闹, 是因为她, 对这份感情很在乎很认真?

你有没有想过其实她很想说, 她累了?

我知道你现在不好过. 可是我还是要再警告你, 不要再在半夜三五点打电话给我了 !! 这个世界上有一种现象叫时差有一种状况叫考试 !!

哈咯眼泪

好久不见

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♥ xee ♥ 11:56 AMPost a Comment

Superwoman

Early in the morning I put breakfast at your table

And make sure that your coffee has it's sugar and cream

Your eggs are over easy, your toast done lightly

All that's missing is your morning kiss that used to greet me

Now you say your juice is sour, it used to be so sweet

And I can't help but to wonder if you're talking about me

We don't talk the way we used to talk, it's hurting me so deep

I got my pride, I will not cryBut it's making me weak

I'm not your superwoman

I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down

And think that everythings OK

Boy I am only human

This girl needs more than occasional

Hugs as a token of love from you to me

I fought my way through the rush hour trying to make it home just for you

I want to make sure that your dinner will be waiting for you

But when you get there you just tell me you're not hungry at all

You said you'd rather read the paper and you don't want to talk

You're like to think that I'm just crazy when I say that you've changed

I'm convinced I know the problem, you don't love me the same

You're just going through the motions and you're not being fair

I got my pride, I will not cry

Still I can't help but care

I'm not your superwoman

I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down

And think that everythings OK

Boy I am only human

This girl needs more than occasional

Hugs as a token of love from you to me

Ooh baby, look into the corner of your mind

I'll always be there for you through good and bad time

sBut I can't be that superwoman that you want me to be

I give my everlasting love if you return love to me

I'm not your superwoman

I'm not the kind of girl that you can let downAnd think that everythings OK

Boy I am only human

This girl needs more than occasional

Hugs as a token of love from you to me

If you feel it in your heart and you understand me

Stop right where you are, everybody sing along with me

I'm the kind of girl that can treat you so sweet

But you got to realize that you've got to be sweeter to me

I need love, I need trust, your love

I'm not your superwoman

I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down

And think that everythings OK

Boy I am only human

This girl needs more than occasional

Hugs as a token of love from you to me

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♥ xee ♥ 8:58 PMPost a Comment

嗯

我说...你们...真的...是为了同一个人在 emo !! 哈哈哈哈. 哎哟, 除了当听众之外我也没有什么忙可以帮的了. 嗯...对啦我还是觉得不要太急比较好. 虽然他说慢慢来 = 等 = 让她跟别人在一起 = 没有机会. 嗯..我还是觉得友情比较重要. 你知道的啦. 会很尴尬的. 都是同一个圈子的朋友,尴尬就很麻烦了的啦哈哈哈哈. 我不知道你们啦, 我自己是很怕这种尴尬的啦哈哈哈哈. 哎哟, 最重要是你们开心就好啦.

明年一月一起去普吉岛的机票呢, 我是真的很想订啦. 可是 Airasia 可能跟我有仇, 一直不要让我顺利完成. 一定会在其中一个步骤出现 error. 所以啦, 订了几百年还是没有订到. 我是真的想去啦, 可是 Airasia 一直要跟我作对我也没有办法. 我会在试试看啦. 希望下一次试的时候就可以成功订到啦. 订不到的话...我也没有办法啦.

前天晚上跟朋友一起去 International Halloween Party, 说是 Halloween party, 更为贴切是以 Halloween 为主题的 clubbing 吧. 不要跟我男朋友打小报告 !! 我可是报备了才去的. Clubbing, 就是 clubbing 咯. 没什么好形容的. 想放照片, 可是懒惰 upload. 因为很暗也没有拍多少张照片.

A facebook friend of mine posted this, 'Guys don't usually end up relationship and like it unsaid because he would want to come back to you after knowing he has taken you for granted.' To be frankly, I couldn't agree more with it. If you know me long enough, you should know what I mean.

我真的很想相信你, 可是我没有办法做到. 因为你说过的话, 答应过的事情, 许过的承诺, 总是没有办到. 你, 为什么会变得不再是你? 因为你, 我, 快没有了自己.

You were all I thought I knew

And I thought we could be

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♥ xee ♥ 9:56 AMPost a Comment

为什么?

E: " 累了就放手. No point to be too stubborn."
B: '' 嗯. "

最近我身边有一个以上的人在搞 emo. 欸你们, 该不会是为了同一个人在 emo 吧哈哈哈哈. 不要 emo 啦哈哈哈哈. Emo 的时候, 你们可以抱在一起哭, 我会递给你们 tissue paper, 帮你们拍抱在一起哭的照, 然后 post 上 facebook 哈哈哈哈.

如果你家附近有一家餐廳，東西又貴又難吃，桌上還爬著蟑螂，你會因為它很近很方便，就一而再、再而三地光臨嗎？
回答：你一定會說，這是什麼爛問題，誰那麼笨，花錢買罪受？

可同樣的情況換個場合，自己或許就做類似的蠢事。不少男女都曾經抱怨過他們的情人或配偶品性不端，三心二意，不負責任。明知在一起沒什麼好的結果，怨恨已經比愛還多，但卻“不知道為什麼”還是要和他攪和下去，分不了手。說穿了，只是為了不甘，為了習慣，這不也和光臨餐廳一樣？

——做人，為什麼要過於執著？！

E : '' 如果没有办法继续, 就不要勉强自己. "
B : " 知道了. 会看着办的. "

就算我固执

就算你坚持

这份感情

也难挽回颓势

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♥ xee ♥ 9:04 PMPost a Comment

突然

D : 为什么又是他?
B : ......

在一起那么久了, 我的确已经很习惯你的存在. 虽然知道有一天终究还是得分离, 但没想到会那么突然. 这些日子以来, 你变了这么多, 已经不是一开始的那个你了. 我不想这么快就和你分开, 但是我真的受不了你了. 既然你已经没有办法再坚持下去了, 那我们也不必勉强, 合则来不合则散, 旧的不去新的不来, 就换个新的吧.

你一定以为我在说我男朋友, 错! 我是在说我的手提电脑! 啧啧啧真是太悲观了, 为什么要这样看衰远距离恋爱叻! 我不能说因为我们在一起很久了所以我们一定可以克服远距离这个难题, 因为放大话是不对的, 可能最后只会被人笑掉大牙而已. 但是至少我对自己很有把握, 不是说我以为自己有多了不起我男朋友一定会一直跟我在一起, 而是说至少距离对我来说不会是一个问题. 虽然距离对我来说不是问题, 但它也的确可以制造许多问题, 而能不能克服也的确是个问题. 我不是没有自信的人, 但我自己也不知道也没把握到底还可以走多久, 可是还是可以走多久就走多久咯. 恋爱这种关系不是你要走下去就不会停, 感情这种虚无飘渺的东西不是你要守就不会漂走的啦.

D : 为什么要开始 ?
B : 你以为我可以预料到会变成这样咩

祝福你

真的

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♥ xee ♥ 10:22 PMPost a Comment

疯了

考试时间表出了. 于是我把回家的日期又在提前了一些, 回澳的日子又再延后了一些. 花了一点廉价航空促销时足以飞单程的钱 fml 可是我还是要换而且也换了 wth. 哎呀如果我在这里多呆那些时间我也是会花差不多数额的钱的还是在家比较开心.

最近我的身体不是很舒服. 我也不知道为什么. 不知是减肥减到疯了还是考试要到了所以疯了或者是想家想到疯了仰或是因为你我疯了, 我觉得自己最近有轻微的强迫症. 一直觉得周围有股很奇怪的味道希望不是因为有阿飘的关系. 然后又一直洗手然后擦到很干很干. 如果你有一点点心理学的知识就会知道一直洗手是不好的症状. 胃口也很差. 一天只是吃那两餐而已第二餐也可以吃到反胃吃不下. 从体重方面来说是好事因为我又和我的理想体重也就是 45kg and below 重逢了. 哎呀我也不想这样的. 我也不知道到底是哪根筋不对啊.

礼物, 希望你会喜欢. 文字, 希望你会了解. 生日快乐. 要幸福. 真的.

害怕收到你的简讯

害怕跟你交谈

害怕听到你的消息

害怕见到你

还能怎么办?

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♥ xee ♥ 6:42 PMPost a Comment

指望

怕不怕被拒絕怕不怕被省略

你怕不怕被淪落在宿命中妥協

當真愛宣告從缺

驕傲的玫瑰正一片一片枯萎

儘管你抱歉懺悔

真心一旦墜跌就不能飛

別指望我諒解別指望我體會

愛不是點頭就能挽回

快樂或傷悲沒什麼分別

心碎到終點會迎刃而解

別指望我諒解別指望我體會

愛不是注定要填你的缺

太多的是非來不及杜絕

更不想依戀這殘缺的美殘缺的迂迴

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♥ xee ♥ 10:03 AMPost a Comment

咯

A : 欸我要问你你跟 C 的暧昧.
B : 哦? 我也是刚刚听你讲才知道我跟 C 有暧昧咯.

显的咯显的咯显的咯. 没有办法用言语表达我的显-ness, 讲了你也不会明白的咯. 每次我处于困境的时候我就会很想念一个人, 那个人就是小光同学咯. 于是某一天晚上我就拨了一通电话给远在马来西亚的他. 果然是小光同学咯. 差一点没有笑死我咯. 果然是跟我一起长大十四年的朋友咯. 跟我一样贱的咯 wth . 真是的咯. 都不懂我们做么讲话可以~~酱废又酱贱~~还可以夹带秘密在里面的咯. 我真的很想你咯小光同学. 其实那天我是有事情要跟你讲的咯可是没有讲到咯. 可是没关系咯回去才跟你讲也是可以的咯也不是马上要发生的事情咯只是想跟你讲一下听听你的意见罢了咯.

这样聊起来很像我们还是朋友咯. 我也不知道要讲什么咯. 哎哟很显的咯. 虽然先放弃的是我可是每次尝试做回朋友的却是你咯. 我不知道我们可不可以再见面咯. 我真的很怕很怕看到你会尴尬咯. 很麻烦的咯. 不知道要怎样办才好咯. 虽然很像变回可以像我们一开始认识的时候那样的说话可是见面的时候就不知道可不可以酱咯. 显咯显咯. 很烦的咯.

A : C 喜欢你是吗?
B : 哦? 我也是刚刚听你讲才知道的咯.

你不必再说对不起

因为我不会再说的三个字

除了我爱你

还有没关系

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♥ xee ♥ 4:20 PMPost a Comment

玩具

我想個被你玩膩的玩具

食之無味　丟之可惜

你的決定　從不說明

我總是乖乖聽你的指令

或許這樣的我太沒個性

我想這也是你離開我的原因

OH　可惜　OH　可惜

我也曾被你捧在手心形影不離

只是你很快就厭舊喜新

OH　可惜　OH　可惜

或許有誰更懂討你歡心

僅存回憶日復一日　

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梁一貞的玩具. 最近有很多很好听的歌啊. Mad love JYJ's In Heaven & Brown Eyed Girls' Sixth Sense too. 无敌实力派啊. 强力推荐. 真的很好听.

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